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Huh...That looks like something I wrote
Posted:Oct 15, 2016 11:59 am
Last Updated:Oct 15, 2016 12:41 pm
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I've been blog-knapped. First off sorry for the overload of blogs today but I had a couple stored in my head. I thought I was done for the week but I had to address this. There's a blog with my I'm done with porn post on it. Not summarized or inspired by. Nope it's verbatim. Right down to the title. It was put up about an hour after my post so if you look for it on the board it's only a couple of post ahead of mine. He's actually got more views than me. I don't mind but at least change the title or wait a day or two.

When I first saw the post I was really feeling myself for a bit. Like "Wow I wrote something someone else though was good enough to steal." But after a while I thought "Just my luck, people already think I'm a troll this isn't going to help."

Weird shit like this happens to me all of the time. One member summed it up perfectly. I have a made for TV story for a life. You just got to move forward.
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What does a blow job feel like?
Posted:Oct 15, 2016 6:30 am
Last Updated:Oct 15, 2016 12:24 pm
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I was watching this porn with this pretty Japanese girl giving a pretty blow job to this guy. By American porn blow job standards it was tame. There was no spit flying, no ball sucking, no gagging. It was... well pretty. She sucked him gently, Looked up at him lovingly and stroked his cock smoothly. It was nice.

It made me wonder. What's it like to get a blow job? So many questions started rolling in my head. How does it feel? I can imagine it feels good but what makes it good? Is it the warmth or the wetness or is it the suction? There's a lot of ridges and sharp edges in a person's mouth. Do they add to the sensation or is it part of the act you just have to deal woth? Is there a difference in feel between the American style blow job and the Japanese style or is it just a mental thing? When there's a woman on her knees with your dick in her mouth is it a powerful feeling or do you feel vulnerable?

Unlike how many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop the world knows but I may never.
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I'm done with porn
Posted:Oct 15, 2016 5:47 am
Last Updated:Oct 15, 2016 11:36 am
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I remember the first time I witnessed anything that was pornographic. I was in middle school. On my way home there was a group of boys crowding around a bunch of discarded porn magazine that someone just left. All the boys were so excited. The bold one's started ripping out pages to save them for later. Not me though I acted too cool for school and didn't get involved in the frenzy and I just continued home. Later the boys who took pictures home where made fun of for being perverts and those who weren't involved like me got a little popularity boost. A week later after everything had died down no one would think about touching the porn magazine pages that where still scattered around the walk home that you would see from time to time but the more I walked past them the more curious I got. I never really looked at them. I would see them but I never looked. So after every one had gone home I double backed and really looked at my first piece of porn pornography ever.

There it was. Tits and vagina on a worn piece of paper. My first glimpse of the nude female form. More importantly my first vagina. Now I knew that boys had penis penises and girls had vaginas as a concept but I've never actually seen what's actually going on down there and it was overwhelming. My heart started to beat out of my chest and I couldn't catch my breath. Now I know that I was just really turned on but at the time I thought I was going to have a heart attack. Me being christian at the time thought it was because this was a sin and God was punishing me. I know, I was a little polly anna middle schooler.

Since then there's been some milestones with my porn use that gave me that same feeling. The first time I watched a porn video. The first time I summed up the balls to buy my own porn. The first time I discovered bondage porn etc but that feeling is long gone. I've reached the highest edges of theoretical sex. It just doesn't excite me anymore. I think this part of my sexuality has run it's course.
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I'm just going to sit in this corner facing away from the class for now on
Posted:Oct 15, 2016 3:52 am
Last Updated:Oct 16, 2016 4:18 pm
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I decided to keep writing my blog but I'm not going to interact with other members. It just gets me into trouble. I'm just too misunderstood and too much of a weirdo to keep doing it. It gets too frustrating trying to explain what I meant to people who have no clue what I'm talking about. So unless I get a direct question I'm not going to respond to anyone.

I'm never going to get meet someone and have sex with them from this thing nor I'm a ever going to be a top bloggers. So I'll just stay in my little corner of this site and do my own thing.
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Flame war (I surrender )
Posted:Oct 9, 2016 10:18 pm
Last Updated:Oct 15, 2016 10:51 am
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I had my first Internet flame war. Let me updated you on the facts. First I commented on a post about if you have ever chickened out on a girl on this site. I was bored so I replied something akin to I never chicken out because I never get asked and I got a response. That response was you should change your username to reject. Which fucking got me mad.

For a little context. This user use to watch my old blog and she use to throw little jabs at me. Not much but weird little jabs. Nothing I could handle but just making fun of me. I would just ignore it and eventually she stopped replying. So when she threw out the reject comment it had some extra weight then just someone being an asshole once.

Now I'm not the guy that goes onto the interwebs and trolls people but I legit got mad and told her that she was ugly. I know childish and rude but you know what's childish and rude insulting someone you don't know. I could have handled it better but you can't reverse time. She came back by calling me gay. I responded by telling her she was going to lick truckers ass for money when guys stop wanting to fuck her. Which I feel bad about but if you're gonna dance with the devil you might as well lead. She told me to leave, so I did. That should have been the end of things but this little cunt decided to get some browny points by being a white Knight and defend her honor. I tried to explain to him that she insulted me first. I just reacted badly. Which I did on her blog by quoting him because I'm a standard member and I can't send him a message directly. Of course he's so far in her pussy he can't see daylight so he responds back with "She told you to leave " and cracks about me being a virgin. Which I couldn't let go. Because I'm a nice guy but don't confuse my kindness for weakness. I've fought gang members in detroit for thinking I was soft so no little pussy on the Internet is going to say shit like that to me without a response. So I fire back with the old who the Fuck are you line.

And of course I check my notifications and I'm getting chewed out by another member for saying that men go run through signs of disinterest because they just put out a overwhelming interested signal to women and let them make the next move because women all express their interest in different and subtle ways which guys can't pick up sometimes. I thought that was a good explanation but she didn't think so. She thought guys should have more social skills or maybe just me.

I think I'm done with blogging for a while. I've been too honest and too open with this thing. This has always been a cathartic release for me to vent frustration but I have been just misunderstood the whole time. I might just move to a site where I don't interact with other users that always seems to get me in trouble. The whole reason I came back to this site was because of the blog community and it's becoming less and less fun. I've given up on finding a sexual partner here so there's nothing here for me anymore.
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There's something you don't see everyday
Posted:Oct 6, 2016 10:52 pm
Last Updated:Oct 9, 2016 11:54 pm
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Something spectacular and strange happened today on my way to work. I was on the bus because I'm killing it a life and there where two transsexual women on the bus. They talking to some girl friends when this guy started trying to pick up one of the girls. This guy was failing big time so he tried to neg the chick he was trying to pick up. If you're not familiar a neg is when a guy insults a women I don't know why but it's a very effective dating tool. I don't know why it works but chicks dig jerks and it works. In this case I don't know if it worked or not because the girl's transsexual friend didn't wait for her friend to respond because she jumped down the dudes throat. He came back with a shot at her not being a real girl and it was on. This chick wasn't a new school, West coast I need my own public restroom transsexual. This bitch was a old school, Midwestern, step up and get and motherfuckers get cut transsexual. Next thing you know she's going in her purse screaming "Let's go, I got something for yo punk ass!" And he comes back with "You come at me and I'll knock you out like the man you are!" They were a couple of seats behind me so I moved because I don't want to catch a accidental knife to the back of the head. Then something strange happened. This gangster looking dude stands up out of nowhere and says "If you think about hitting her I'm going to fuck you up!" Right to this dudes face. This dude came at him so aggressively that everyone stopped dead in their tracks. The neg guy wasn't even thinking about fighting he was trying to calm this dude down but this dude was so aggressive that he wasn't hearing it. He screamed in the dudes face "Fuck calming down, you heard what I said. If you touch her I'm fucking you up!" This dude was so aggressive that the trans women started defending the neg dude.

After a while they both managed to get this dudes blood pressure back down to a normal level and they all talked and laughed about it until the gangster dude got off the bus. The neg dude and the gangster dude even got the trans womens number. People never stop confusing the hell out of me.
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I wish I was more of a stereotype
Posted:Oct 4, 2016 10:25 pm
Last Updated:Oct 9, 2016 9:17 pm
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It's hard out here for a guy like me. Lets just say it. I'm a friendly Negro. I always wear a belt and shirt. I don't have any felonies or baby mamas. I pronounce the k in ask for Christ sakes. And that's the problem. It seems that every chick on this site who are into black guys wants the stereotype. That super aggressive, hypermasculine dude like the guys in videos. That's just not me. Now I grew up in the inner city of Detroit and I've never been taken advantage of so I'm not a bitch but that stereotypically thug I'm not.

Let me break down the general women in Southeastern Michigan that are on this site. Most women aren't into black guys. Not just women of other races. Some black women are in this category also. Some say it explicitly in their profiles. Some imply it. Most just ignore you but they're entitled to their own preferences. It just sucks that something I can't control excludes me from meeting some really interesting people but what are you gonna do.

Then there's the women who would consider being with a black guy but the problem with these women is you have to be exceptional to get their attention. You have to be the right age, height, have a acceptable career and own your own home. You have to fit inside of her world before she will let you fit inside her. I don't fit with these women. Not because I'm black because I'm too young, too short, and rent. There are women who just want to have sex with a black guy just for the story. First off you're doing the lord's work but they go for the stereotypes too. I get it ladies. If you're only going to dance with the devil once you might as well lead but it sucks for me.

Now we come to what should be my wheel house. Women who want to be with black guys. There's not many of them but I only need one. But that's were I'm out because they want the stereotype. That's were I get lost. I could be aggressive and your pussy and pull your hair but I'm going to talk about Murray Rorthbard afterwards but no one wants a friendly Negro.
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A weird question about cum
Posted:Oct 2, 2016 11:59 pm
Last Updated:Oct 3, 2016 12:01 pm
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Male cum! It doesn't seem like much but it has driven the human race to incredible hights. In the pursuit of cumming men have fought wars, built bridges, paid cover. It has shaped our behavior and pushed society forward. Cum is a gift in a way. It's meant to be shared with the one you love or the one with the ass you love.

That being said. I developed this question that just keeps nagging at me so I decided to ask. To those who like sex with men how do you feel about cum. Is it just a byproduct out being into dick or do you actually enjoy it. Is it like pussy juice were it's really hot to see it all over the place or just something you just deal with? I would really like to know.

As a straight guy who cums regularly. I have a relationship with my cum that is probably much different than someone who is sexually attracted to guys. Or maybe not. I can only speak for myself but having cum dripping from my cock and pooling on my hands and thighs sets off a 4 stage cycle for me.

When I cum there's stupidity then self hatred followed by further analysis then clean up. If I can explain. There's studipity or the act itself were you have the I.Q. of a shrimp. Then self hatred which is the time were you feel disgusting and creepy. Further analysis is where you sit back for a few seconds and try to figure out what went wrong and you start to question all the decisions you've made to get you to this point. And finally clean up. That's were you ruin a perfectly good towel.
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Story time My trip to a lounge
Posted:Oct 1, 2016 3:28 am
Last Updated:Oct 1, 2016 6:02 pm
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I have a close family friend lets call him Q. I basically grew up with Q and the whole time I knew he was gay. Before I knew what gay was I knew Q was gay. Q is really gay. He's not the type of gay guy that could pass for straight if you didn't know him. No Q is really feminine almost stereotypically gay. Think of every gay guy you've seen in a movie that's what Q acts like. That being said Q just broke up with his boyfriend not to long ago and decided that he needed to take his mind off of things so he wanted to go to a lounge. He didn't want to go to his usual places because he usually goes to gay clubs and the gay community in detroit is very small. He didn't want to deal with the possibility of running into his ex or deal with the gossip. He just wanted to drink and dance but didn't want to go into unfamiliar straight territory by himself. I don't know how he did it but guess who got dragged along.

So there's Q and two women I don't know who are also going through a break up and they're in full fuck men mode and then there's me. I don't know why I'm there. I don't drink, I don't dance in public and I don't like crowds. I'm just sitting there wishing the apocalypse would happen so I could die with some dignity but everyone else is having a great time drinking and man bashing.

After a while trying to cut my wrist with a straw I decided to stop having a fuck this party in my head and do some socializing. Who knows maybe I'll find a girlfriend. I start by trying to talk with the two girls that came with us but I can't get a word in edgewise because the three of the have whipped themselves into a "Fuck him girl" tornado so I look around the room and I see a attractive woman in a teal dress. I say fuck it and go up to her. I'm terrible at starting conversations so after a couple of false starts she not so subtlety mentions she has a boyfriend. She was sitting alone in a lounge in a dress and heels past 9pm. I been around enough women to know she doesn't have a boyfriend. I have a boyfriend is just a nice way of saying its not going to happen. You're taking up space that could be filled with some who I'm actually attracted to. So I go back to the men sucks table to rebuild my confidence. After a while this girl walks in and sits at the bar. She has this cool purse. It's looks like it's hand made but the coolest part of it is made from pictures from Steven universe. I love steven universe and my nerd instincts kick in and the next thing I know I'm talking to this girl about everything. We actually had a nice conversation. She's the kind of girl I really like. She on a roller derby team, she made the cool purse herself, she just moved to detroit from San Francisco because she wants to sell her original purse designs and the cost of living is so cheap here and she wears glasses. I'm such a sucker for a girl in glasses. If a girl wears glasses I'm instantly attracted to her. Anyway we talk for about 45 minutes straight until the Lorena Bobbitt trio is done and wants to leave. So I ask for her number so we can continue the conversation at a later date. Emphasis on the date part. Then she told me she had a boyfriend. Now I know 100 percent that she doesn't have a boyfriend. We had been talking for more than 45 minutes. She just moved here and she told me that there was nothing in San Francisco worth staying for because most of her friends were moving away because of the rising cost of living there. So I just thank her for the conversation and leave.

I wish the story ended there but that's not how my life goes.When there's a cut life has to rub salt in it. Me and the other grab a lyft and they're hammered. So hammered one of the girls and Q start making out as a joke. At first. By the end of the ride they're all over each other. They ended up having sex when we got home. So Q a flamboyant gay guy had sex with a women before I did. That wasn't good for my self-esteem.
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I heart capitalism (my long rant about the most important and beneficial system in history)
Posted:Sep 30, 2016 12:37 am
Last Updated:Sep 30, 2016 4:11 pm
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I was listening to the Joe Rogan podcast and it happened again. Someone bad mouth capitalism. This time it was his guest John Anthony West. He called it one of the 5 Cowboys of the apocalypse and I never wanted to slap a 85 year old man more in my life. It happens a lot. People don't know what capitalism is they confuse it with imperialism or the worst aspects of human cutely at the expense of other but in reality it's the most effective way man has been able to come up with to expand human well being. Let me explain.

Lets me get the basics out of the way first. Capitalism is based on mutual exchange. Not greed or fucking over someone else. Mutual exchange. Lets say that you have a t-shirt I want. The only way I could get that t-shirt from you in s capitalist system is if I offer you something you value more than the t-shirt. Like 20 dollars. I value the t-shirt more than I value the 20 dollars. You value the 20 dollars more than you value the t-shirt so we both leave the exchange better off. That's the elementary school version of capitalism. You can throw other wrinkles in there like at any point someone could offer you the same t-shirt at a lower price and if the first person can't match or lower there prices they go out of business. So that guy has to get creative and find a way to lower their prices or create a new product that people value enough to pay a higher price. That's the elementary school version of the free market. It's a system that time and time again has made countries wealthier and pulled people out of poverty from the first time it was widely used in The UK after the Scottish Renaissance of the late 1500's which turned a relatively small island off the coast of Europe into a global superpower to modern day China who switched from a socialist economy to a free market capitalist economy in the late 80's and is now seeing unprecedented economic growth. The results are always the same.

I blame the Russians for capitalism's bad . During the cold war they did a masterful job tying capitalism to imperialism and playing on people's natural aversion to self serving behavior. Say what you will about those commies but they knew how to dish out propaganda. I'll explain why capitalism embracing of self serving behavior is good in a minute but let me get to the difference between imperialism and capitalism.

Capitalism is based on mutual exchange I've established that but imperialism is based on force. That's the difference. Lets take the t-shirt exchange. I want a t-shirt just like the last time but this time imagine that I have a gun. You may value the t-shirt more than the 20 bucks but if you don't sell guess what's going to happen. That's imperialism. One person is better off while the other is left poorer. It has nothing to do with the mutual exchange it's all about exploitation. Back in the day when the European powers used imperialism to exploit less developed countries because they believed that their wealth came from superiority when it was really from capitalism. That belief stemmed from the strick class system in Europe from being conquered so many times by different groups like the Romans and Normans. You had to keep a barrier between the group in charge and the locals and also quack scientific disciplines that grew in vogue at the time like eugenics but that's another story. But the Russians took full advantage of this historical data to smear capitalism which we still deal with even after the collapse of the United Soviet Socialist Republic.

Finally why self serving behavior is a good thing in a capitalist society. Capitalism is based on mutual exchange. It has built into it a mechanism for both parties to benefit from a exchange so there's no reason to put someone else's needs before your own. There's also a case that people are naturally self serving the first law of nature being self preservation. Which is why we prize altruism because it's not common but that's another story. In capitalism you don't have to be altruistic. You could be selfish and still help others in society. You actually help more people by being selfish than altruistic in a capitalist society. If you had 100,000 dollars you could give it to a charity and help hundreds of people or you could buy a car and help millions. Think about all the people involved in making that car that you will help support by buying a car. Not just the car dealers and manufacturers but the guys who take out the trash at night and wash the windows at the dealership, the steel workers, the engineers, landscapers, secretaries, glass makers, farmers, plastic makers, so many. If you want to blow your mind just consider that everything on a car has to be made. Try to see how many jobs it takes to finish one piece and every time it takes a machine to make something think of how many people it takes to make that machine that it takes to make the original piece and don't forget the building maintenance and upkeep and know that your selfish act ensure all those people can feed their families and that's just one piece of thousands.
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I think I may be lonely
Posted:Sep 26, 2016 8:05 pm
Last Updated:Sep 26, 2016 10:20 pm
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I've always been alone but I've never felt lonely. I grew up spending tons of time by myself because we moved around a lot and me being a natural introvert along with my sister being six years older and a extrovert who loved the inner city lifestyle of running the streets getting into trouble and my mom's strick no faternizing with the enemy rule. Being alone for hours, days or even years felt more like a old friend more than something that makes me feel bad but lately I've been feeling....well bad.

I've been feeling more and more disconnected from other people which for me isn't something new but this time somethings different. Maybe I'm getting soft in my old age but I feel left out. I don't know if that's loneliness of something else but I'm in a weird space that I've never been in before. And if I am lonely how do you get rid of it with limited to no social skills?
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March of the basic bitches
Posted:Sep 21, 2016 7:36 pm
Last Updated:Sep 23, 2016 4:59 pm
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It's officially the time of year were the creature Commune canis femina or basic bitch as it's more widely known as starts it's preparations for the winter months.

First it must store calories for the harsh winter months to come. The basic bitch does this buy consuming massive amounts of a sugary concoction made from a larger gourd that becomes ripe only for a few months around this time called a pumpkin spice latte. This concoction seems to serve a dual role in the world of the basic bitches as not only a source of calories but also a status symbol. Basic bitches who don't enjoy the taste of pumpkin will still obtain these pumpkin spice lattes to fit in with the herd. Also it seems to matter what watering hole basic bitches obtain these pumpkin spice lattes. From my observations that even though pumpkin spice lattes are abundant in the fall month basic bitches will spend vast resources to obtain lattes from the Starbucks watering hole even though they it takes less resources to obtain them elsewhere. It is my opinion that the basic bitch receives some sort of smug superiority from obtaining lattes this way.

This is a special time for the basic bitch. From what I can tell this is mating season. Ending on October 31st were the basic bitches compete with each other for mating rights by dressing in elaborate yet extremely reveling costumes. Don't confuse this display with the of Yoga pants and ugly boots which the basic bitch calls uugs which I assume is a shorting of the word. Basic bitches love shorting words.

The basic bitch is a fascinating creature that needs more study. I suggest we set basic bitch traps at every tend that pops up.
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IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! but it doesn't matter.
Posted:Sep 21, 2016 4:26 pm
Last Updated:Oct 15, 2016 11:20 am
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It's official,I'm 32 years old today. On this day 32 years ago I came into this world via C-section on a military base in the middle of Colorado. Yes, C-section, I'm one of a few straight guys that can say I've never touched a vagina. You know what I'm talking about, UP Top!...No, nothing? I understand. Anyway, I mentioned before on this site that I haven't had a birthday party since I was 10 and don't celebrate my birthday. There was a second when I thought I should buy myself a cake just to have some sort of recondition that I'm a year older but then I realized that the only thing that's sadder than not celebrating your birthday is celebrating along after buying your own cake. I mean that's a living Tom waits song. So I dropped it. I actually forgot it was my birthday until I got Facebook messages wishing me a happy birthday. So today is like any other. I'll watch galaxy quest on Netflix and go to work tomorrow.
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