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Posted:Nov 15, 2015 9:22 am
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On sex The kind of fg I need __ Sexy sounds he makes -- SomedaysConstant state of arousal -- Day like today scent of sex -- Intimacy and the moment __ What kind of style __searching forThe other side to casual fwbs

Toys r'us Request to see my toys__New toys

My kinks: My master list for BDSM 2017
Alternative thinkin are you kink friendly update2016 __ Just a view into my kinks and Just a view into my kinks
Kinky search, for me and for you __The list __ My kinks bondage
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My searches: Now younger guys ___ and of course Seems I have older men search

Tongue Goes in First tonight__Squirty needs towels__Flirty Friday __Sinday morning and The list
another day done__Finding your MOJO
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Sexy saturdaypenis thoughts__ Adventures in dating land for tues__Mornin ladywood
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[post 3799308]__world of words __ Logical right
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Searching for wood ๐Ÿค”
Posted:Nov 24, 2017 9:19 pm
Last Updated:Nov 24, 2017 11:16 pm
So moving forward sexy bloggers and I am in no hurry at all....
But Geez I am just a wee bit horny. Lol

Where do you find those fabled men that enjoy sex?
Obviously the badlands doesn't lend well for finding wood, well firm wood.

Those men open to sensual exploring and all night or all wknd of sexytimes.

I do find my city to be quite different when it comes to finding partners for sex or play or dating... where many women in other cities are flooded with options whereas I see cobwebs for the most part. Lol

Ok back to being horny.
I have slipped a bit and started masturbating every morning.
Lol..Ya and it feels good too.

So searching for new potential partners for the new year, as no one will be into meeting until after the new year. Lol!

Sexy bloggers,
Searching far and wide,
... where do you find these men I seek?
Wait wait...where do you find Your partners? How much risk do you take or a gamble on "maybe"?
Sexploration and ideas
Posted:Nov 23, 2017 7:43 pm
Last Updated:Nov 24, 2017 11:16 pm

So sexy bloggers I was asked the other day ...
What do I want to take to my next "relationship"?

And that got me thinking about...tah dah... Sex. (You surprised...ya me neither)

Anyway I started going over my interests in sexploration and my favs of course where on the top of the list. There are a few that I will have to give up on as the possibility of finding someone interested is going to be very remote now, of course there are always compromise by letting me kink it up with another play partner.

Let's see, I've been reading over a few discussion groups on another site about prostate massage with cock milking or long sensual blowjobs.
I quite enjoy the intimacy that it brings with partners, plus being allowed to milk them as many times as I can.
...ya did I mention I am also a sensualist along with being a hedonist 8=> I enjoy giving pleasure as much as luv receiving but I also get great enjoyment out of his sensations, orgasms, and of course pleasure... (Ok ya I need another word for pleasure. Lol.)

I think a long sensual blowjob and Pmassage would go great with a full body massage.

Not that I have men lining up to meet but I sure enjoy the thoughts around how much sexploration is to be had with the right partners.

Sexy bloggers,
What sort of sensual pleasures cross your mind?
Anything you have yet to try? Or any that you enjoy sharing again n again?
I feel a storm coming on...
Posted:Nov 21, 2017 9:35 am
Last Updated:Nov 23, 2017 7:54 pm

Deep down in my bones I feel a storm coming on.
Not a "boner" I feel... Geez we will get to that in a min.

That turmoil of insatiable appetite whetted by sexual frustration aided on by a longing for something that should be easy to find.

The deep desire for primal pleasure, to feel those orgasms build into a tide of wetness crashing against the shore only to build again and again.
The scent of maleness, feeling his energy mix with mine.
The dance of the devil...

The storm inside is starting to swirl, just a mild breeze but a constant reminder nonetheless. Ideas pulling apart from each other, yet intertwined.

My insatiable hunger isn't fixed by junk food,
the cravings are not satisfied with cheap treats.

My sexual energy has only had a glimmer of what it could be for almost 4.5 yrs, with only a short stint at its better potential but that still only scratching the surface. Years longer I have searched, but maybe the kind of sex I seek is only in dreams and the harsh reality is
. that the junk food sex that is available is what people want..
. so maybe that is what people enjoy the most and that is the norm..
.. and I'm just reaching for the better experience but it doesn't exist.

Curious. Interesting. More information required.
And this is just the beginning....
Sexual confidence.
Posted:Nov 20, 2017 2:49 pm
Last Updated:Nov 22, 2017 6:02 am

So anyway sexy bloggers and those that have been following this meandering path of flowers life, Lol,

The next bit of my journey is going to start from the bottom.
Very very bottom.... Ok scratching the friken barrel kinda bottom.

I had to take a break from orgasms because of excessive masturbation and porn. But my 4 month time out has hopefully reset a few things.

Let's get back to sexual confidence shall we.
It's no secret that I had a bad run of dates a few years ago, and that's what prompted the excessive masturbation... those bad dates took a toll on my confidence with sex.

So where does one start building thier confidence again?

Have you ever had a bad run of luck and it wore down your self esteem and/or sexuality? Have you had to take steps in order to gain your confidence back...

Hookups are definitely not the answer, if anything another bad date will turn me off of sex all together. ...I already bought a strapon that a guy can wear (because 7 bad dates with erectile issues, I figure I will fix that with a toy the next guy can wear)

I know looking at younger guys that it will still be the luck of the draw to find that is decent at sex. But options are limited already.
Maybe this is where I finally call that pro...

It's only been almost 4 yrs since I had sex with some new.... zero sexual confidence... so where to from here.

Sexy bloggers have you sought a professional ?
I know for men they just need to get laid because he will orgasm 95% of the time and it always feels good with a dick in a hole.

But ladies, have you ever had to build your confidence up again?
I do fully understand that the guy needs to like you as a person, but that still doesn't guarantee great sex...hence that many bad dates. Lol

And we don't have the same high numbers of men in my area as in large cities, we certainly don't have many interested in women over 38. So finding a date is a whole lot harder here (unfortunately most of my past dates couldn't get hard so it reflects directly on me...I get it)
Sinday morning in the badlands
Posted:Nov 19, 2017 9:57 am
Last Updated:Nov 22, 2017 6:02 am

Sexy bloggers it's a blustery day in the badlands but at least the sun is still shining. ๐Ÿ˜€

So menfolk of blogland,
In the past did you believe that women can have a libido?
Or was it something that you only seen in porn and with hookups?

Obviously I am still struggling with the thought that men have seperated sex from relationships. But in order for a woman to get good sex she needs to be in a relationship.
So how does one find that??

I have encountered plenty of haters on another site because I desire sex with my next "potential" relationships. That people just can't understand that a woman can have a high sex drive and not be promiscuous (I know shocking right). Not everyone has a lack of willpower and no self control. I value pleasure far over mechanical sex. Getting laid is easy, but I like the challenge of searching for the better experience! But the menfolk sure don't like it. Seems to me they like the church mouse instead when looking for relationship.

Does that mean I have to lie about my interests and downplay the importance of physical intimacy and pleasure in my life and what I want to give to him?
Sounds fucked up to me.

So how does one search for a relationship that includes sexual compatability when I would have to make like I have a strong dislike for sex and sexploration?

I want my next relationship to have massage, to have long sessions of oral and toy play, to include a quick fuck in the shower before work, to include weekends full of exploring.... But I have to hide my interests to find a partner. And go with "I like long walks on the beach".

Sexy bloggers when you are looking for "partners" what do you look for in thier profile and in the conversation that will generate interest for you?

("Just photos" doesn't count and this whole post isn't about you kind of people)

I am just soo tired of meeting asexual men and low sex drives because I wasn't clear on the importance of intimacy to me and my relationships.

...how's that for frustration.

You know what, I will hide the comments so you can answers honestly about if you are looking for more or not. If your post is generic enough I will show it but if it included you are looking for an eventual relationship then I will keep it private so you don't lose your horn dog status.
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Cold turkey...yikes
Posted:Nov 17, 2017 7:33 pm
Last Updated:Nov 18, 2017 4:17 pm
So.... the cold turkey break has been interesting to say the least. ๐Ÿฆƒ

The persistent and constant state of arousal is still there but now it's just a mild light hum, still reminds me daily that it's still there.
But apparently the emptiness that I am feeling is the cold turkey withdrawal. Lol
So that was an "ah ha" moment now I get it. (old cats can learn new tricks)

Anyway it's a powerful reminder how much we rely on hormones and the primal pleasures in life.
So eventually I will bring masturbation back into my self soothing routine.

The hard part is over though. Lol
I still have to limit the porn watching though, or I will end up "watching" for 2 hrs instead of going to sleep. Lol!

There is no sex in my future, but little steps first.

Sexy bloggers,
Figuring out life's trials and tribulations....even my sex therapist made me laugh today.

Ya..I'm boring on a Friday night, but I am looking forward to new year and getting back to hopefully cam nights, and more kink stuff.

Enjoy your evening sexy bloggers.
Talking about sex. ๐Ÿ˜
Posted:Nov 15, 2017 12:22 pm
Last Updated:Nov 17, 2017 8:32 pm

The differences are pretty apparent between the male half and the female half.

Guy: "I will bang that"
Chick: "He has great eyes and he is fun to be with"

I do believe this difference in thinking is what makes it difficult to find good sex vs just finding any hole/pole.
I know what I desire with my sex and I know what I give, but I rarely find the sex I enjoy. Experience tells me that he has to actually like Me in order for him to care about mutual pleasure. I also know from experience that it doesn't matter how much I give him, he will only return the pleasure if he likes me. Lol. And not many men want "feelings" with thier sex, so in turn I don't want bad sex so I don't bother meeting.
I can only wish that sex was good far more than it was "meh". No matter how mch you talk about it before meeting, it still comes down to him liking you as a person.

But it's also those differences that make it difficult to enjoy casual sex because many men feel that it's just to blow a load and he doesn't have to worry about her pleasure. And a woman basically needs to be either really hot or in a "relationship" in order to get good sex.
If she goes along with casual sex it's highly likely that it's all for his pleasure and orgasm and not mutual pleasure (no matter what she does).

Oh where the fuck was I rambling off too with this...

Oh... I remember... trying to figure monogamous relationships and it's core definitions of sexual and emotionally monogamous to one person. Considering how many people only match thier daily life and Not thier libido...then where the fuck does sex come into the relationship? Is it really just for special occasions and "pair bonding"...and not for pleasure or "what the hell, we have time for a quickie" type of moments.
How the hell does a hypersexual person deal with being in a monogamous relationship and not expect sex -> when that other person promised to be there for the sex side and not just the emotional!

Ok.... ya I am still struggling with this task of lowering my sex drive because now I am getting into the "frustration" column of my learning.
At least I'm trying.

Sexy bloggers,
I like to read books on sex, sexuality, pleasure and yanno...
...that's it.

So yes I am having difficulty with this because long past experiences proves that I can not expect a monogamous relationship to give me all the sex I desire as my libido seems to increase when I am partnered...at it puts pressure on the male half, then it strains the relationship...then I go into denial, then try and cope....
Sinday morning coffee
Posted:Nov 12, 2017 10:15 am
Last Updated:Nov 13, 2017 8:09 pm
Cock! I mean coffee..Ya that's right Coffee! wink

Lazy sinday morning and my dreams full of nekid men. Lol.
Hash browns n sausages this mornin, but I will take some cream with my coffee.

Reading dating trends and other assorted research papers last night (ya I am that boring to read research papers. Lol.) let's just say that if men stopped and actually thought about it they hold the upper hand with dating.
Anyway, that's just a short form in saying that I am missing sex....scratch that, I am missing Good Sex!

Back to reading, I do have a pile of books that I need to work through this winter. Maybe that will keep me from reading research papers. Lol.
May improve my imagination for blog posts also.

Aside from looking at photos in a porno mag (ok Geez online, ya I still remember what a magazine looks like),

Sexy bloggers,
What is in your reading list?
A question about "luck"
Posted:Nov 10, 2017 6:02 pm
Last Updated:Nov 12, 2017 3:49 pm
Ya it's Friday!

Anyway sexy bloggers I tend to get "how's your luck on here?" Or some variation in my inbox (not my "Box " lol.)

And I tend to chuckle at that question because "how IS my luck?"
Is he asking about whether I found some good porn to jill off to, or if I found some hot photos or good blogs... what is He asking..?

M'kay well pending my mood I may just " well I haven't found what I desire."
Or pull a typical miss flower response and type out what I am looking for and whether/why I haven't found the partners/sex/kink I desire.

Either way I do think about other people's definition of "luck" on any site
(not just here as I get that kind of question on paid dating sites too).

Sexy bloggers,
How do you gauge the success of the site or your searches?

Do you gauge success by meeting people, or by bad date vs good date, by how easy the sex was got?
Yanno what I mean right? ok ya its Friday...long week and she keeps asking all these tough questions
Couldn't sleep
Posted:Nov 9, 2017 1:23 pm
Last Updated:Nov 11, 2017 3:03 pm
Weird dreams lately and getting a wee bit restless,
I couldn't sleep..well actually I was pretty darn tired but just couldn't resist temptation.

I have controlled my self indulgence quite well these last few months,
I had a moment of weakness and masturbated for an hour AND to porn. Lol
Ah well...
Let's just say I slept really really well after.

Counting sheep and restless nights,
Sexy bloggers what do you do to relax it your bedtime routine?
Hump day ๐Ÿค”
Posted:Nov 8, 2017 12:04 pm
Last Updated:Nov 17, 2017 3:37 pm

Well sexy bloggers it's almost 3 months for my drive to lower my libido and desires.
And all I can say about this experience:
Now I know why most people are bitter, empty, angry, .... lol.

Especially the empty part, and I believe this is what led to my last bout of sadness when I tried to lower my sex drive in my late 20's.
What amazes me is that a man will give a woman a relationship and it doesn't have much to do with being sexually compatible. In fact she is probably asexual or has a lower sex drive (just look at the stats for ashley M, and about how many married or attached men are on dating sites looking for sex)
Why do you men covet this low sex drive?
This weird empty feeling is mind boggling.
My multiple orgasms are down to a one n done (just what men prefer).... I haven't squirted in 4 mths at least.

You men are weird to prefer low sex drive women. Lol
No wonder my sex therapist is busy with couples trying to increase thier own libidos.

I'm kinda sad though that my multiple orgasms are now ...stuck.

So where to from here?

Sexy bloggers,
living with a lower sex drive, what do you do with your free time?
What about when you find a partner?

I take it you just do lots of cuddling or talking instead of sex or anything pleasurable/stimulating. Geez...I have lots to learn don't I.

Did I mention that somewhere deep in my mind my primal urges are craving for a squirty orgasm and hard pounding sex? Or is that just latent memories holding on to a shred of hope.

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